~i don't know how you do what you do...i'm so in love with you...it just keeps better...i wanna spend the rest of my life...with you by myside...forever and ever...every little thing that you do...i'm amazed by you~
as i playback the song on repeat..."amazed" WAS our song...at least i thought it was...
i class it was all about me and my best friend..we were like joint-at-the-hip no secrets hidden sort of friends you know...until you came along...
apparently, your "good-looks" caugt glimpses of many eyes at school...lucky for me...i wasn't smitten...but, my best friend was head over heels i tell ya!
my bff, tanya...was totally gazing on every oppurtunity there is...fortunate for her, all three of us had been assigned to the same class...and we were sitting on the same line straight to the back as according to the classrooms...me and her, inseparable like obviously sit on the second (me) and third (her)from the front...the messy part is that you sat right in front of us (in front of me to be exact)...from that on, tanya definitely confessed that you were THE ONE...
"yeah right" sarcastically i told her
and so...to eventually see who this guy is...i sort of tapped your chair and asked
"urm excuse me...what's your name?"
BIG MISTAKE!
when you turned your head...
it was flawless...and you smiled
evidently, we have the same name...
weird...
but my scepticism melts from the look of your eyes...
those deep black eyes are like back holes that suck the life out of whoever it meets...
and i'm lost...
being the good actress me...
the feeling died within a couple of minutes and i made believe like nothiing happened...
and yet...i know you felt it, too...
the spark..
it was a lucid and plain as the nose on your face sort of spark...
and i like it...
shaking off the amoureuse feeling...
i try to focus on getting tanya on with him...
as tanya decided to go for a new course she had to be shifted to some other classroom...
this was my chance to rid of flashing thoughts of him in my mind,
his constant rendez-vous in my sleep...
as i went to give a mano-a-mano...
i prayed my hardest...
"so, here's the thing...i'll make this short and clear, understand?"
trembling at my feet like as if i'm standing on some earthquake...
looking at those eyes again...it swallowed all my words in whole...
but, i just gotta do it...
"you know tanya?" i directly asked him
effortlessly...like as if he wasn't aware of the spell he's enchanting on me...
"urm...no...why?"
oh god! this sucks!
i hate beating around the bush...it's time consuming and absolutely pointless...
if i want them together might as well i just say it...my heart says i don't...
but my mind as a friend says i have to...
"she likes you,you know and you're gonna love her..." i said them hands down(lying)...
for a minute there...
he took his time to get back to reality as if in a dumbfounded stun...
once he's done...
out of the blue...
i hear the words that i've been dying to hear from those lips
"but I LIKE YOU..."
for a few seconds i was shooting up to heaven like a geiser!
but, once i'm back on the ground...
i just realized i had made one of the biggest NO-NOS of friendship...
I'M DEAD...
but, i didn't mind...
she's still my best friend no matter what and i know i can get through this...
cause he would be by my side to help me along the way...
as days pass...
turns out i spoke to soon...
after a few days and all,
he sort of vanished out off my life as if he wasn't even there...
and he still hasn't turned up eversince...
asking around with the pals he's been hanging out wit...
some said he shifted because of some family thing...
some claimed he shifted school, but why is still the question...
some just said he dropped out of school(but that is just plain dramatic...he wouldn't do that...he loved school!)
whatever it is still remains as an enigma...
i decided to move on with life...
though you made me learn that
sometimes your nearness, takes my breath away...and all the things i want to say can find no voice...
therefore, in this silence...i hope that my eyes will speak my heart...
"I STILL LOVE YOU"
